sankinggonz

ah. the lord is so faithful. been in a funk the past few weeks but i feel im coming out of it. i love how he pursues me and gently nudges me along towards wholeheartedness. ive noticed the times i feel distant from him is when i reduce him down to a formula. the other day i was getting out of my car at o'henry's and so clearly i heard, "I AM IN EVERYTHING!" oohhh how my soul craves for that still small voice. i love it. i love when he speaks to me like that. one sentence and everything changes. well not everything, but i at least begin to feel his light. do you ever feel his light? if not, ask him to let you begin to recognize when its ok you. its the most amazing thing. anyways so he says to me I am in everything and my heart skips a beat. i immediately am drawn towards him, when for the past few weeks its like i want to be near to him but i dont. my guard is down and im just like ahhh jesus. you're so sweet and kind. ive made you a formula once again please forgive me. all he wants is relationship. he's in everything. he's not just a quite time or a church service, we're meant to live and abide continually in the vine. let our souls bask in his presence all the time. jesus died that we may have full access to the father and be continually filled with more of the holy spirit. i love that he's taught me this same lesson a million times and he's not annoyed to remind me again. he's so patient and loving. yet he disciplines. im thankful for that too. and He works everything for our good... ah, im blown away.

tonight i was convicted about compromise. i hate it. i hate that i don't give him everything and dont always love him. even if people dont perceive it, we're aware of the condition of our heart and so is god. man looks at the outward appearance but god looks at the heart. he loves and cares about the external things but all that really matters is how your heart is positioned towards him.