job23:8-10

look, i go forward, but He is not there,

and backwards, but i cannot perceive Him;

when He works on the left hand, i cannot behold Him;

when He turns to the right hand, i cannot see Him.

but He knows the way that i take;

when He has tested me, i shall come forth as gold.

he's answering my prayers. i tend to want the 'suddenly', he seems to really enjoy the process. i want to jump on the helicopter, but he's asking me to hike up the mountain with him. it's not always easy, but he's with me. and lets me lean on him and even carries me at times. he knows what i can handle, although sometimes pushed to the max, he never lets me stumble. through it all, we're building a history together. its priceless. and deep. and growing love in my heart. im gaining confidence in his leadership. its perfect. and he's fully trustworthy. ive found life on the narrow/difficult road. he is life. and wayyy better than i could have ever imagined. its beautiful too that the hike up the mountain isnt always hard. its filled with times of awe and wonder, swimming in waterfalls, playing, picnics. and there's always opportunity to stay in those places, but in order to move forward you must keep hiking up. "consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance and perseverance must have its perfect work so that you can be mature and complete not lacking anything."

i love his ways.

me: what about these little bumps by my eyebrows?

esthetician (foreign accent): honey, you're beautiful. don't look too close. that's most peoples problem, they look to closely at themselves.

:)

jesus anointed by a sinful women

this passage in luke 7:36-50 has been on my mind all week.

the "sinful women" finds out that jesus is having dinner at the pharisees house, a place she is knowingly unwelcome. so she does the most logical thing and goes there. and she doesn't sneak around and look through the window seeing jesus at a distance. no, she goes in to the house and falls at his feet weeping and pouring oil on him, washing and kissing his feet. she is unashamed. their previous encounter had obviously been significant. enough to deliver her from the fear of man. this challenges me. when im around "religious people" i tend to downplay my expression of love for Him. she appears oblivious to others. her heart is overwhelmed with thanksgiving for what he's done for her.

those who have been forgiven much love much.

love covers a multitude of sin.

jesus: i entered your house; you gave me no water for my feet, but she has washed my feet with her tears and wiped them with the hair of her head.

you gave me no kiss, but this woman has not ceased to kiss my feet since the time i came in.

you did not anoint my head with oil, but this woman has anointed my feet with fragrant oil.

(i want to be like this women)

your faith has saved you, go in peace