i forgot my bible and journal today at home. i guess in corporate america that would be equivalent to forgetting... your blackberry and.. something else. maybe a really expensive pen that you have to use to sign really important documents. basically, some of the essentials tools for my job. ha. good thing the actual Holy Spirit lives inside of me, can't forget Him :)

in the works...

1. a trip to the Holy Land with my lovely friend, jana, for the end of sept-dec. we're sending in our applications to go on staff at Succat Hallel (house of prayer) this week. pray that someone subleases her room in kc. and that the Lord would send some finances our way. honestly, that is the least of my concerns.. i know He will provide. Please still pray for that though :) ideally i would like to have $3000 for it. that would include everything (plane ticket, living, food, etc.). 

2. my granny is starting to read the bible. i gave her Redeeming Love for her bday a few weeks ago and i called her monday and we were talking about it. it was really good. feel like i have an open door with her to talk about the Lord which is a huge blessing. i asked her if she wanted to read a book of the bible together and then talk about it once a week. she said that would be hard to do over the phone. later i realized that i think she thought i meant actually read it on the phone... i'll have to give that another shot with a little more explanation next time. 

thats about all for now.

you are fearfully and wonderfully made. perfect and enough. 

kristene mueller

http://www.myspace.com/kristenemueller

All my devotion is found in this Man.... 

a cake i made. its kinda boring, but it works. tasted yummmmy :)

God is so good!!!!!!!

so last night and this morning He let me go into travail for the homosexual community. i cant believe we actually get to partner with the heart of God in moving in the affairs of men on the earth! that is CRAZYY!! 

so then i walk over to the offices to pick something up out of the printer. this guy is over there asking about Daniel Academy (a partnership homeschool thing at ihop). needless to say, i know nothing about it and have no idea where the information is. so i kinda look like an idiot... yea i'm on staff and i dont know anything.. somehow we just start talking about ihop and he's asking me and my friend chad about it. we tell him about lots of the different parts, about how we raise support and what God has done in our hearts since being here. by the end of the convo he says he wants to support us $250 a month!! wwhhhhatt?!?!? our Father is so faithful! 

2 words: EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY !!

annoyed. got invitations printed for the internship graduation. came to panera for some coffee and to stuff envelopes.. take the invitations out of the bag and they printed upside down! are you kidding me? that's just plain annoying. 

oh well. 

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ive been feeling frustrated with where i am at with the lord. feeling really condemned actually. like i should be farther along than i am with the lord, that my prayer life should be deeper, i don't really love people, i'm selfish, my relationship with the Lord is shallow, i'm inadequate to talk to anybody about Him.... all of those things just railing against me for a few days. 

but the Lord, in His great kindness, leads me to this passage and i feel like it really speaks to my heart right now. this might not be the right interpretation just what i felt the Holy Spirit was telling me.. 

SOS 6:11-12

I went down to the garden of nuts to see the verdure (greenness of growing vegetation; condition of health and vigor) of the valley, to see whether the vine had budded and the pomegranates had bloomed. Before I was even aware, my soul had made me as the chariots of my noble people. 

He didn't let her see if the vine had budded or bloomed; didn't let her evaluate herself, instead revealed to her her identity and position. We are seated with Christ in heavenly places. 

It doesn't matter "where I'm at" or "how well I'm doing"..that's not my identity. 

The truth is that I am a daughter of the Most High. I am chosen by Him. Predestined to adoption. Perfect in His eyes. Covered in the blood of Jesus. Filled with the Spirit of the living God. More than a conqueror through Him who loves me. A pleasing fragrance to Him. The one He loves. The one He died for. The one whom His eyes can't look away bc He is so crazy in love. 

There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus...who can condemn? It is God who justifies. Hallelujah! 

chillin in tampa at panera.. 

today we'll celebrate my granny's 80th bday. lunch at the country club then a surprise party with all her friends at the house. im looking forward to hanging out with my cousins. i found a picture from when she was a kid last night that looked exactly like fletcher! it was crazy. she had really short hair and a tobago on holding the biggest snowball ive ever seen. i'm going to try and get a copy of it. 

something exciting: 

i might get to go on a mule ride down the grand canyon and spend the night in a cabin down there with my dad in september! how ridiculous would that be?! my mom cant go, and doesn't want to, bc of work so i casually asked if i could go and they said sure! that would be amazingg and great father/daughter time. hope it works out. 

oak trees are amazing! i want to be one.

 

check out this cool fact about them..

Oak trees can start producing acorns when they are 20 years old, but sometimes can go all the way to 50 years for the first production. By the time the tree is 70 to 80 years old it will produce thousands of acorns.

 

how interesting that it takes them so long to produce fruit but once they do so much is produced in their later years that it almost cannot be counted. makes me think about how jesus only had 3 years of ministry in his life and then John says that, "And there are also many other things that Jesus did, which if they were written one by one, I suppose that even the world itself could not contain the books that would be written."  all throughout our life as a believer we are bearing fruit in the spirit, but i think it takes years, possibly 50, of growing in our relationship with the Lord before he releases us into our main calling or ministry. And all those years of being faithful with the little and being consistent will produce much in the end. This makes my heart relaxed and calm. There's no pressure to be at the pinnacle of our ministry anytime soon. Just stay faithful in loving Jesus and learning from the situations He brings to teach you and train you in His ways and you'll produce lots of fruit. 

to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor. Isaiah 61