joy and a wreath

looooove this! added to the never ending list of "one day when i have a house.." that wreath would be real cute with colored balls too.. umm..

peppermint + chocolate = my new found christmas obsession! sweet and refreshing. mmmm.

pretty sure my ideas about trust and hope are about to get completely demolished and rewritten.

scary. good. and hard.

full of surprises

He sure is.

full of surprises, that is.

if you've been around me for any amount of time you would probably hear me tell a story which involved me having a moment (as i like to call them). to me a moment is when it feels like the whole world stops, i look around and think, "how did i get here??" i love those moments. usually they happen when im say.. in cental park on the first day of spring leaning against a tree eating lunch, listening to the girls next to me talk about their auditions and life in the big apple, or riding on a ferry across the bay to the island i work at in socal with too many sail boats in sight to count, or in a weird sit/stand position on a crowded bus in jerusalem coming back from the holocaust museum, or floating in the dead sea, or (basically everyday in israel ha), and the list goes on..

its in those moments iknowthatiknowthatiknow that he's holding my hand. that his eyes are on me. everything within me in those moments trusts his leadership. trusts that he's in control. trusts that he's trustworthy.

i love when moments happen in everyday life.

they sneak up on me sometimes when im least expecting it and my heart silently screams, "YESSS!!" and i realize im in it. just me and him. and for the rest of the day i just cant wipe the grin off my face.

my plan this morning was to take garcia for a quick walk, take a shower, go to a coffee shop and read (pretty standard). he had different plans for my morning which i'm so thankful for. and welcome ANY DAY!

i took garcia to a trail in mt b and thought he might be hot so i went down to the creek to let him get a sip. he seemed to really like it so i thought id let him walk around in the water for a few min. i was stepping on the rocks (as to not get my shoes wet) when surprisesurprise my shoe slipped on a wet rock and in went my whole foot. i thought, "ohwell" and just started walking through the water. (garcia was loving it!). im really enjoying it and suddenly i stop and look around and im standing in a creek, not a sole in sight, shoes soaked, listening to a song at the part that says, "wrap me in your arms, i want to be with you so you can make me like you.. cause i wanna be close to you yea i wanna be held by you.", my dog splashing around and my heart screams, "YESSS!!!" im in it. i smiled, with a sigh of relief (havent had a moment in a while), and spotted the perfect rock to sit on. i ended up sitting there, muddy dog in lap, for over an hour with "i love you" pounding in my chest. everything about it was perfect. so perfect.

he is seriously THE BEST FRIEND.

always says the perfect thing. at the perfect time.

knows exactly what you need. and gives it to you. hallelujah.

job23:8-10

look, i go forward, but He is not there,

and backwards, but i cannot perceive Him;

when He works on the left hand, i cannot behold Him;

when He turns to the right hand, i cannot see Him.

but He knows the way that i take;

when He has tested me, i shall come forth as gold.

he's answering my prayers. i tend to want the 'suddenly', he seems to really enjoy the process. i want to jump on the helicopter, but he's asking me to hike up the mountain with him. it's not always easy, but he's with me. and lets me lean on him and even carries me at times. he knows what i can handle, although sometimes pushed to the max, he never lets me stumble. through it all, we're building a history together. its priceless. and deep. and growing love in my heart. im gaining confidence in his leadership. its perfect. and he's fully trustworthy. ive found life on the narrow/difficult road. he is life. and wayyy better than i could have ever imagined. its beautiful too that the hike up the mountain isnt always hard. its filled with times of awe and wonder, swimming in waterfalls, playing, picnics. and there's always opportunity to stay in those places, but in order to move forward you must keep hiking up. "consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance and perseverance must have its perfect work so that you can be mature and complete not lacking anything."

i love his ways.

me: what about these little bumps by my eyebrows?

esthetician (foreign accent): honey, you're beautiful. don't look too close. that's most peoples problem, they look to closely at themselves.

:)