this and that

4 days until the beginning of what hopefully marks one of the most significant seasons of my life. I have a lot of expectation for the next few months and am excited since He always exceeds my expectations and then some. I feel like a lot will be revealed as far as vision, purpose, direction and those sorts of things, as well as an incredibly deep and sweet love for Jesus... Makes me smile just thinking about it :)

I've felt a nudge here and there to "let go" of some things for now. I am trying the best I can to be sensitive to those nudges, trusting and believing He has my best interest in mind. With a lot of comforts removed, it has left me bare before the Comforter. I'm realizing He's jealous to be the one we run to. In good and bad.
With so much uncertainty before me, anxiety and fear try to creep their way into my heart, but the voice of my Father keeps saying, "Will you trust My leadership? I am faithful."
It is amazing how quickly my heart will go from fear to rest at the sound those words. He has never let me down. He has never disappointed me. He has never left me. He has always provided. He has given me joy. He is joy. He is peace. He is life. And He lives in me! I have absolutely no reason not to trust His leadership. Thank You Jesus! Have Your way in me!

This past weekend, Taylor and I were talking about the beauty of God. And how beautiful this God of ours must really be that we've never actually seen Him with our naked eye, yet we know and feel His beauty! Something to think about...

On a lighter/random note, Meagan and I joined LAFitness, so thats exciting. I think it would be really fun to work for Ace of Cakes. The rain has been a nice change. I, Sandra King Gonzalez, am actually ready for it to get colder. And I miss Tuscaloosa.
1Samuel12:24
The End.

oh peace & contentment.

i dont know if i've ever had this feeling..
choosing to be exactly where i feel the Lord has called me.
up to this point in life the road has been marked out as to what step to take next.
now its just completely open to wherever He directs me. what an exciting adventure!
i havent had this sense of peace for where He has brought me in a long time, if ever. it rules. peace rules.being content rules. Jesus rules.
i like saying 'rules'...its kinda like 'the bomb'. i like them both, ha. makes me think of a 14 yr old with neon nike high tops for some reason.

psalm40:11
..Let your lovingkindness and your truth continually preserve me.

globes, maps, shower curtains & the Father

while driving to target the first weekend meagan and i had moved to atlanta i mentioned that i wanted one of those map-of-the-world shower curtains. from there i went on about how i've always wanted a globe and that i love looking at maps and knowing where places are. we kinda laughed about my randomness and moved on in the conversation.
we arrived at target and were looking in the bathroom section and right there on the shelf was a miniture globe! I'm here. I'm listening. I'm attentive. My gaze is fixed on You constantly.
i bought the $1 globe without hesitation, completely filled with joy on the inside because of the sweetness of my Father.

this past weekend i was in nashville for fletcher's graduation. the whole family was there, which was great but my introverted self started going crazy by friday afternoon. i was pretty unpleasant to be around much of that night and saturday to be honest. and even in my grumpy, stubborn, not loving state He kisses me.
saturday afternoon we ventured to the Tomato Art Festival, where although the street was packed, i knew it was my getaway. i wondered around looking at the art and just enjoying some time by myself. i was walking through this old house filled with beautiful antiques and there it was...a bookshelf filled with globes. at least 10. again i heard, I'm here. i'm listening. I'm attentive. My gaze is fixed on You constantly.

again at target today, my mom and i were looking at shower curtains and there it was..the world map. of course i bought it. besides the fact that its completely sweet, its the best reminder and i hope i hear it every time for the rest of my life when i see a globe or world map, the sweet voice of my Father, I'm here. I'm listening. I'm attentive. My gaze is fixed on You constantly.

a few psalm 119 promises

return to rest, oh my soul, for the Lord dealt bountifully with you [7]
I will run the course of your commandments, for you shall enlarge my heart [32]
turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in your way [37]
and i will walk in liberty for i seek your precepts [45]
you are my portion, o Lord...[57]
the earth, o Lord, is full of your mercy; teach me your statutes [64]
you are good and do good; teach me your statutes [68]
i know, o Lord, that your judgments are right, and in your faithfulness you have afflicted me [75]
let, i pray, your merciful kindness be my comfort...[76]
let your tender mercies come to me that i may live; for your law is my delight [77]
let my heart be blamless regarding your statutes, that i may not be ashamed [80]
forever, o Lord, your word is settled in heaven. [89]
you, through your commandments, make me wiser than my enemies; for they are ever with me [98]
you are my hiding place ans shield; i hope in your word [114]
hold me up, and i shall be safe...[117]
your testimonies are wonderful; therefore my soul keeps them [129]
the entrance of your word gives light; it gives understanding to the simple [130]
direct my steps by your word, and let no iniquity have dominion over me [133]
make your face shine upon your servant...[135]
your word is pure; therefore your servant loves it [140]
your righteousness is an everlasting righteousness, and your law is truth [142]
you are near, o Lord, and all your commandments are truth [151]
the entirety of your word is truth and every one of your righteous judgments endures forever [160]
...my heart stands in awe of your word [161]
I rejoice at your word as one who finds a great treasure [162]
great peace have those who love your law, and nothing causes them to stumble [165]

as you walk into the room
make your home in me
as i cast my burdens
don't hold back your mercy
fill me with your might
fill me with your truth
fill me with all you've got
the knowledge of you
fill me with your word
seal it on my heart
that i'd be known as yours, a child of God

and i want to be like you and all that you are
so help me be mindful of the longings of your heart

fill me with your might
fill me with your truth
fill me with all you've got--the knowledge of You

i open my eyes to see your goodness
i open my heart to catch your gaze
cause You delight in me, You do.

ft laud day 1

arrived in ft laud last night. the airport looked completely different than what i remembered. there were fish tanks and huge tropical mural paintings..probably the coolest airport i've seen lately. 

granddaddy, uncle george and i talked for a little while. george was telling us about his church and that they let this ministry use their building that reaches out to the homosexual community. it started with 7 people who wanted to get free of that lifestyle and has grown to over 40 people. the church is located in the heart of wilton manors, which 18% of the households are homosexual. praise the Lord! 

grandaddy and i went to Harbor Cafe this morning for breakfast. he told me about him and grandmothers trip to hawaii. 

going to find something to do..

only a few left.

i suppose i should savor these moments..?
6am. project due at 8am. paper due at 3pm.
not finished with either.
coffee in hand.
ghetto computer propped up against my backpack on my bed.
seeing how long i can possibly procrastinate.
its hard be motivated after my adviser already said congrats for graduating college.
oh yes, thank you.
with spring break a day away and my congrats in-hand, school work is next to impossible.