sankinggonz

annoyed. got invitations printed for the internship graduation. came to panera for some coffee and to stuff envelopes.. take the invitations out of the bag and they printed upside down! are you kidding me? that's just plain annoying. 

oh well. 

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ive been feeling frustrated with where i am at with the lord. feeling really condemned actually. like i should be farther along than i am with the lord, that my prayer life should be deeper, i don't really love people, i'm selfish, my relationship with the Lord is shallow, i'm inadequate to talk to anybody about Him.... all of those things just railing against me for a few days. 

but the Lord, in His great kindness, leads me to this passage and i feel like it really speaks to my heart right now. this might not be the right interpretation just what i felt the Holy Spirit was telling me.. 

SOS 6:11-12

I went down to the garden of nuts to see the verdure (greenness of growing vegetation; condition of health and vigor) of the valley, to see whether the vine had budded and the pomegranates had bloomed. Before I was even aware, my soul had made me as the chariots of my noble people. 

He didn't let her see if the vine had budded or bloomed; didn't let her evaluate herself, instead revealed to her her identity and position. We are seated with Christ in heavenly places. 

It doesn't matter "where I'm at" or "how well I'm doing"..that's not my identity. 

The truth is that I am a daughter of the Most High. I am chosen by Him. Predestined to adoption. Perfect in His eyes. Covered in the blood of Jesus. Filled with the Spirit of the living God. More than a conqueror through Him who loves me. A pleasing fragrance to Him. The one He loves. The one He died for. The one whom His eyes can't look away bc He is so crazy in love. 

There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus...who can condemn? It is God who justifies. Hallelujah!