my Delight :)

i have loved this week.
even though i worked 47 hours.
jesus has felt so near.
just been delighting in him all week.
THANKYOU.

ive had the phrase, "i delight myself in the richest of fare trading all that i have for all that is better" in my head all week. its a shane & shane song that i didnt even have on my computer. ha. not sure where i heard it. but i love it.

and the verse, "delight yourself in the lord and he'll give you the desires of your heart" has also been ringing in my ear. honestly, ive never really liked this verse. it's like oh so if im not getting what i want, does that mean im not delighting in you? or people say it with this weird attitude of like oh well you would have x, y or z if you delighted in the lord. i dunno. just never was a fav of mine.
but i seriously CANNOT get it off my mind. and whenever i think about a verse to paint on my wall this one continually comes to mind.
so yea, jesus loves this verse. so i asked him to tell me about it. i love when he changes my perspective from harsh-annoyed-god to really-kind-and-gentle-god. it's like DUH! haha.

ok, so it's actually not, "love me and ill give you what you want" (in a harsh voice)...
it's more like, "while we're just in love and enjoying each others company, ill show you whats in your heart" (in a really sweet voice with a smirk on his face, implying lots of wonderful, good, unimaginable things that are going to make you so full of joy you might just explode).

so yeah. i love this verse. and i love delighting in jesus. and i love that he's not a vending machine. he's a person. the kindest, most humble, gentle, fierce, exciting person to ever exist. and he lives in me.
and im gonna marry him forever.
and our wedding is going to put the bhldn website to shame. haha

few things on my mind.

a good camera.
ocean.
africa.
open skies.
salty air.
a love thats sweeter than honey.

although i just posted the other day on fb about anthro's outrageous prices, it doesn't mean i don't love it. in so many ways. and this makes me really glad i'm not married yet. haha.

holy moly.

its been a long week.
emotionally.
physically.
mentally.
my second seemingly "perfect" living situation of the month fell through this week.
thats exhausting. in all the ways i just mentioned.
if i look at one more apartment i might just explode.
last night i was at a friends house. and god bless her, she was being so sweet looking up places for me to live. and we even drove around and looked at a few. but i was worthless. i could feel myself fading. fast. especially after that glass of wine.
anyways. you can pray for me.
need a place today.

so its looking like puggy and i will be getting a 1 bedroom apartment in the next couple of days. lord willing, with a balcony. ive had some stressful times figuring out where to live.
but none compares to this.
although i think in the end its going to turn out sweet.
ive always wanted my own place.
and well, im about to get it.
so thats exciting.
really.

HE KNOWS ME. dang.

even to them (gentiles) i will give in my house and within my walls a place
and a name better than that of sons and daughters;
i will give them an everlasting name that will not be cut off.
isaiah 56:5

technically..

every day we're more alive than we were the day before.

so we do not lose heart.

though our outer self is wasting away,

our inner self is being renewed day by day.

2corinthians4:16

i started thinking about this a couple weeks ago.

decay felt tangible.

i could see it in everything i looked at.

and felt like it was on me like a heavy fur coat.

as i felt the slime of a fallen world, i thought about this verse.

to the world each day we're closer to death.

in jesus, each day we're closer to life.

true life.

eternal life.

"i am the way the truth and the life." jc

he's the most hopeful man i know.

singers and dancers say alike, "all my fountains are in you."

finally. verizon.

CANnot wait for one of these bad boys. so glad ive held out on my upgrade. it will be worth the wait im sure.

our beloved, our friend.

the letters to the 7 churches in revelation each start off with a description of jesus. they stuck out to me today. yea, this is the one we love!

THE WORDS OF...

Him who holds the seven stars in his right hand,

who walks among the seven golden lampstands.

the first and the last, who died and came to life.

Him who has the sharp two-edged word.

the Son of God,

who has eyes like a flame of fire,

and whose feet are like burnished bronze.

Him who as seven spirits of God and the seven stars.

the holy one,

the true one,

who has the key of david,

who opens and no one will shut,

who shuts and no one will open.

the Amen,

the faithful and true witness,

the beginning of God's creation.