my Delight :)

i have loved this week.
even though i worked 47 hours.
jesus has felt so near.
just been delighting in him all week.
THANKYOU.

ive had the phrase, "i delight myself in the richest of fare trading all that i have for all that is better" in my head all week. its a shane & shane song that i didnt even have on my computer. ha. not sure where i heard it. but i love it.

and the verse, "delight yourself in the lord and he'll give you the desires of your heart" has also been ringing in my ear. honestly, ive never really liked this verse. it's like oh so if im not getting what i want, does that mean im not delighting in you? or people say it with this weird attitude of like oh well you would have x, y or z if you delighted in the lord. i dunno. just never was a fav of mine.
but i seriously CANNOT get it off my mind. and whenever i think about a verse to paint on my wall this one continually comes to mind.
so yea, jesus loves this verse. so i asked him to tell me about it. i love when he changes my perspective from harsh-annoyed-god to really-kind-and-gentle-god. it's like DUH! haha.

ok, so it's actually not, "love me and ill give you what you want" (in a harsh voice)...
it's more like, "while we're just in love and enjoying each others company, ill show you whats in your heart" (in a really sweet voice with a smirk on his face, implying lots of wonderful, good, unimaginable things that are going to make you so full of joy you might just explode).

so yeah. i love this verse. and i love delighting in jesus. and i love that he's not a vending machine. he's a person. the kindest, most humble, gentle, fierce, exciting person to ever exist. and he lives in me.
and im gonna marry him forever.
and our wedding is going to put the bhldn website to shame. haha

few things on my mind.

a good camera.
ocean.
africa.
open skies.
salty air.
a love thats sweeter than honey.

although i just posted the other day on fb about anthro's outrageous prices, it doesn't mean i don't love it. in so many ways. and this makes me really glad i'm not married yet. haha.

holy moly.