pretty sure my ideas about trust and hope are about to get completely demolished and rewritten.

scary. good. and hard.

full of surprises

He sure is.

full of surprises, that is.

if you've been around me for any amount of time you would probably hear me tell a story which involved me having a moment (as i like to call them). to me a moment is when it feels like the whole world stops, i look around and think, "how did i get here??" i love those moments. usually they happen when im say.. in cental park on the first day of spring leaning against a tree eating lunch, listening to the girls next to me talk about their auditions and life in the big apple, or riding on a ferry across the bay to the island i work at in socal with too many sail boats in sight to count, or in a weird sit/stand position on a crowded bus in jerusalem coming back from the holocaust museum, or floating in the dead sea, or (basically everyday in israel ha), and the list goes on..

its in those moments iknowthatiknowthatiknow that he's holding my hand. that his eyes are on me. everything within me in those moments trusts his leadership. trusts that he's in control. trusts that he's trustworthy.

i love when moments happen in everyday life.

they sneak up on me sometimes when im least expecting it and my heart silently screams, "YESSS!!" and i realize im in it. just me and him. and for the rest of the day i just cant wipe the grin off my face.

my plan this morning was to take garcia for a quick walk, take a shower, go to a coffee shop and read (pretty standard). he had different plans for my morning which i'm so thankful for. and welcome ANY DAY!

i took garcia to a trail in mt b and thought he might be hot so i went down to the creek to let him get a sip. he seemed to really like it so i thought id let him walk around in the water for a few min. i was stepping on the rocks (as to not get my shoes wet) when surprisesurprise my shoe slipped on a wet rock and in went my whole foot. i thought, "ohwell" and just started walking through the water. (garcia was loving it!). im really enjoying it and suddenly i stop and look around and im standing in a creek, not a sole in sight, shoes soaked, listening to a song at the part that says, "wrap me in your arms, i want to be with you so you can make me like you.. cause i wanna be close to you yea i wanna be held by you.", my dog splashing around and my heart screams, "YESSS!!!" im in it. i smiled, with a sigh of relief (havent had a moment in a while), and spotted the perfect rock to sit on. i ended up sitting there, muddy dog in lap, for over an hour with "i love you" pounding in my chest. everything about it was perfect. so perfect.

he is seriously THE BEST FRIEND.

always says the perfect thing. at the perfect time.

knows exactly what you need. and gives it to you. hallelujah.